Dear Lady. Ann:
I met and fell in love with my husband at first sight and we got married a year later. I have been married for 17 years with a disabled daughter in the marriage. She is the only child for my husband but not the only one for me. I think I’m falling-out of love with my husband and I don’t know what to do. It all begun when my husband let his 2 eyes start rolling for another woman and I just gave up not knowing if I was doing the right thing or not. We started sleeping SEPARATELY TILL NOW. If he comes to my room, I tell him no. I deprive him of sleeping with me not knowing it was wrong. But if I want it, I call him on my own terms and condition. I DON’T BELIEVE IN DIVORCE AND SO DOES HE, but why do I pray about it and I still give up.
I even wanted to leave him, so I started to look somewhere else for attention. So I went online. I know what I was doing was wrong but I went ahead and did it. That’s how I try to deal with the obsession of my husband’s womanizing life style. I just felt if he can do it right in front of me, I can talk to my ex online as well. So I continued knowing it was wrong. Honestly, with me I know what I was doing was wrong, so I told my husband that I’m online doing these things. He got mad but I don’t care. My husband hurt me badly, years after years. Whenever we are driving, he just flaunts himself with women around me. He traumatizes me and I stay and take everything.
I sorted out my husband’s immigration status and one day he came home and said “babe, I don’t see anything going on here, you have to leave”. I mean my husband had just gotten his papers, only for him to hand everything over to me and say I used him anyway. That was when I took my online flirting more seriously. I even traveled to see my ex and WE SLEPT TOGETHER. I SWEAR JUST ONCE. Even though I know it was wrong AND I did it, i just want the hurt I’m going through with my husband to just go away but it won’t. This guy keeps calling me. I try to break it off but he won’t let me. Each time I block him, I unblock him because I miss him.
I told my husband that he pushed me into another man’s hands and arms. Now my husband is very sick with arthritis in both knees and both side or hip, I will not leave my husband for my ex. I blocked him on all social media and I have not taken any call. I’m praying every day. I say thank you lord for helping me. I am even praying for my ex to find love somewhere else. My husband asked me if I want to leave him now, I must go. It still hurts me how my husband used me for immigration papers but I say for better or worse. He still works, he builds houses so he’s still fit but he can’t do what he use to do before because I am walking away if I see him do it in front of me again. I NEED HELP WITH THIS SITUATION PLEASE. I’M PRAYING BUT I NEED YOU GUYS TO HELP ME. I NEED MORE INTERVENTION. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. I NEED TO SAVE MY MARRIAGE HERE AND NOW
KRYS