Dear Lady. Ann:
I am currently “arguing with myself “. Many years ago I would be smart behind my sister’s boyfriends back (teenage stuff) and one day I heard a voice say (I believe it was God) “you need to stop doing that” why I asked “because one day you will marry a man with the same name” came the reply. I said okay then asked “what will his last name be” the answer was “related to (a friend of mine) but not” then my day continued and I forgot all about it. Some time later my sister offered to matchmake me with someone. As she described him I realized she was describing everything I had been praying for in a man and I got scared. The moment she told me the 1 thing she didn’t like about him – I used that as the excuse to say no. (I had already forgotten about the discussion with God so didn’t click that this person had the same name…) this led to another discussion with God.
I heard the words “are you sure” but didn’t recognize his voice until after I thought yes I’m sure. Then I heard “ok” in that moment I realized it was God and not me double checking with myself. I repented but heard the words “too late”. 2 weeks later my sister told me that he was in a relationship and that all his friends believed he needed to get out as he was being emotionally abused by her. My sister wanted me to get him out. I refused. I told her if he is a Christian (as you told me he is) that he will ask God before he proposes. Thinking this was just her partner trying to match make us I added “if God wants us together he will bring us together when he’s single” . It is now around 17 years later and we are both single attending the same church. I know right now it’s still recovery time so nothing can happen. What I am battling with is this:-
1) was the word God gave me for that time?
2) God would have known what my reaction was going to be – and his word never returns void
3) If God wanted us together back then, would He not have brought back to mind what He told me the day He gave me his name. And He would have known I was going to repent within minutes of saying no – would He not have held things off for those moments?
All those years ago, I did know this man’s last name. Now I not only know his last name but I know he is an extremely distant relative of my old friend.
Please pray before replying