Dear Lady. Ann:
I don’t even know where to start but I do know I was very in love and very happy at one time. I met my ex whilst I was at university and we had similar interests. Despite the connection we had for mutual love in travelling, I was not attracted to him at all at first. I remember asking God for the reason he’d come in my life but you can say I was a baby Christian then so I didn’t pray about it like I should have. Fast forward now he showed me true love, was always there for me, I fell for him eventually and we’d spoken about marriage many times. We had even gone ring shopping. Because of my degree I was required to travel abroad for a year. Whilst in another country he unfortunately got into trouble whilst driving and had to face the law. Whilst going through that he had received the ID A9921EA – EA are my initials so I jokingly told him we should marry on 9/9/21 all the time and he’d agreed.
After a while I’d find out that he’d flirted with another girl – my perfect love had been broken and it turned very toxic. I saw the conversations, it wasn’t anything serious between them but I’d lost all my trust in him. But I decided to stay. On January 13th 2018 whilst praying I received a scripture in my heart and it was Daniel 12:12 “blessed are those who patiently make it through 1335 days”. Before I’d even googled the date, my heart immediately told me it was 9/9/21. The day we agreed to marry and it was. Since then the relationship got worse and more toxic from both sides as I kept accusing him and didn’t trust him – even though I’d verbally hurt him and acted crazy.
He never once insulted me or did anything in retaliation. I’m still getting much in love with him but he doesn’t trust me at all because I keep throwing the past in his face. Although we’re not together, I really can’t let him go. I felt so much void after we broke up and even had a baby. My baby’s dad left us but that’s another story. I know 9/9/21 isn’t yet but I don’t know if it’s best to wait and see how things are working even though he basically hates me and we’ve both hurt each other so much or if I should let it go just in case it’s a soul tie? Please help me. I’ve prayed and fasted so many times but I’m so conflicted.