Dear Lady. Ann:
I am struggling with knowing when I get ahead of myself or when I am hearing from God. In the past, I’ve been known to put people in the friend zone and wait for them to come pull me out. So Yesterday I took a “leap” of faith with someone I’d gone out with a few days prior. He’s grown into such an amazing man of God and his heart is to seek the Lord first. I was impressed with him and was looking forward to getting to know him better. For the first time, I saw someone that I believe has the foundation to build a Kingdom marriage with purpose.
Also, I have many reasons (coincidences) to believe this was someone God might have for me (too many details to type). However, when I reached out yesterday I got the impression he didn’t feel the same. (No direct conversation about it, but it was very off at the beginning of the conversation). Needless to say, it was still very discouraging. I graciously switched gears into “friend” mode in my head so that the disappointment would not be so evident in my voice. I have been meditating on Psalm 143:7-10. May He show me the way I should go and teach me how to do His will.
That afternoon I had spent time in His Word, hoping that my head and heart would be in tune with the Lord’s. Feels like it wasn’t. Any advice on how to balance stepping out in faith vs getting ahead of myself and then feeling awful?
Thank you!