Dear Lady. Ann:
For a while I have been thinking about a spiritual person I can share my story with, Please hide my Identity.
I met a man through my cousin in august 2017. I was a Christian but luke warm, I ended up sleeping with him in the first month. We had sex on a few occasion and I got pregnant in may 2018. This man wanted me to abort the baby but I refused, I decided to carry the baby. Its a long story but he gave me very little support when I was pregnant, moreover I wasn’t working. I went through a lot but God remained faithful despite. Time for giving birth came, he never showed up until the baby was 8months. When I asked why he had never seen the baby, he said he got problems.
Anyway the baby is now 1 year and 7 months, he has seen her 4 times. On a few occasions he has tried to support. During Covid lockdown in my country he tried to support and some how he was showing interest, he wanted to come back. Nevertheless I have prayed and prayed for clarification but it Seems My heart is stuck to him even after so much I went through. I may sound stupid but I feel I love him and on top of that I heard he got someone else pregnant and did the same to her.
When I close my eyes to pray for my future husband or a man from God, its him who comes in the picture. I feel disturbed of recent, I connected to a guy from my sis. He works in Nairobi and we haven’t met but through whatsapp. For the last few weeks I have known him even when we haven’t met, he has supported me in so many ways. He divorced his wife 5yrs ago and they have 2 kids together.
This man is too speedy. He claims he loves me so much even when we have not met and wants to marry Me. On the other hand I don’t want to rush as I want to wait on God’s timing. I am praying to God for clarity and to reveal to me who needs to stay and the true sign of the Godly man he has for me. Please intercede and pray with me for the Lord to guide me and lead me to the right man and to also have a steadfast and unwavering faith in God. I know I have been forgiven for my past and am looking forward to my present and future blessings.