Dear Lady. Ann:
Hello. My phone recently stopped working and it threw me off. I did everything on it and now I don’t do much but stare in space, sleep and watch TV. Please pray for me to not lose my mind but to find peace in this time with no phone. I have no idea how long I’ll go without a phone. It could be multiple months before I get a new one. I’m also very lonely. I don’t have friends around or anyone to talk to, it’s just my little sister and me. I mostly internalize things and don’t talk about them. Now that I don’t have 24/7 access to the internet to watch a video or text a friend, I cry more and I’m starting to feel a bit depressed. My thoughts are getting out of order. I know better but I just feel like I lost a fraction of myself.
Also, I’m to go to college in August but my mother (she’s abroad) has no faith in me. She makes me feel 10X worst many times about my capability and ability to be ok in this world. I will need financial help and she doesn’t think I’ll get any. She often put me down but I know that if I’m put in the position she doesn’t think I can be in, I’ll do well. But hearing her makes me feel unable to do life successfully. My little sister also doesn’t have faith in me. The people around me see me as someone weird, annoying, and unable to be around people for a long time because I was never able to keep friends. Often, my mother and sister are against me, which makes me wonder about my existence. But I know I am here for a reason that is not quite clear yet. My mother wonders about my future because it doesn’t look bright to her, but I know God has a plan for my life and that it’s a good plan. I try to rely on the truth and not be bothered by what I hear around me. Lady Ann’s ministry is a blessing. Please keep me in your prayers.