Dear Lady. Ann:
I am a young single mother, single in the sense of being unmarried. I am turning 33 years this year and would like for prayers in meeting the right partner. Ever since breaking up with my daughter’s father back in 2014, a very toxic relationship it was, I’ve been in a vicious cycle of toxic and abusive(emotionally and psychologically) relationships which has also led me to getting back together with the same people that mistreated me over and over again. I think I lost myself along the way that I thought it was better to be in a not so great relationship than to be alone. I did not understand why I needed to be alone.
For the past few years I’ve actually had “bad luck” in meeting men that have either been traditionally married, going through a separation, preparing for a marriage or actually married. I would usually find this out when I’m already in “relations” with the guy. So one very huge mistake I did with my last relationship was decide to just date a guy knowing he was married. I am not sure what had gotten into me or how I found myself in that trap but this guy had me, he would tell me how terrible things were with his wife and that they are currently undergoing divorce arrangements and he knows I’m the one that God has called him to be with. He kept telling me that he wished he met me sooner, blah blah blah. Worse thing was we would prayed together and he had 80% of the attributes I prayed for in a husband.
Until one Saturday, I woke up to texts and voice notes calling me all sorts of names and seemingly the “vail” was lifted. I approached him and he still insisted that they were indeed getting a divorce, I knew right then that this cannot be of God or from God so I cut all ties with him. He did attempt a few times throughout last year to reach out to me but I rejected all attempts. I know I might be getting judgements for being a “home wrecker” but I truly am sorry for what took place and I’m not justifying my actions in no means. I never openly told my family and married friends that I knew he was married because I feared their judgment and rejection. I also did not want them to feel like they couldn’t trust me around their husbands because I am definitely not that type of a woman.
I really would love to meet the right man, I just completed my 21 Daniel Fast and have been praying for God to work on me as well so I can be a good wife when I finally meet my husband. I’m working on paying off debt, growing in my career and becoming a better mother to my daughter while in waiting and generally getting to know myself better. I’ve been single for a year now and as much as I want to marry I’m scared of meeting someone who will come and bring confusion in my life after working so hard to build myself again.
Please pray with me Lady Ann