Dear Lady. Ann:
I have been really struggling with my p.t.s.d. and bi polar and my moods and depression. I want to be the best me, the strong, independent, and inspirational woman that I am, but I’m not always able to do that, or I’ve been having a really tough time doing it lately. I find myself listening to Christian music in the car and crying and praying. I haven’t been there for my 2 girls like I want and need to be, and I haven’t been supportive or understanding with my boyfriend. I just feel like he’s going to hurt me like people have in my past and I push people away, I push everyone away.
I haven’t been able to keep a job because mentally and emotionally I just can’t keep my mind in a positive go forward mindset. I don’t have any family, only my kids and my boyfriend. And I think he is going to leave me too. I want to change this behavior, I want to be the best me that I can be.
But in this moment I have every single thing on my plate and I don’t know how to pull myself out of it. I do believe that I found this group for a reason. I am a nursing assistant and what brings me happiness is bringing happiness to others and smiles to faces that weren’t there before. I want to be able to do that again. Thank you so much for just being there. A listening ear is sometimes so much more than just that. Thank you.