Dear Lady. Ann:
I would be very grateful if you could help me out of this confusion please. Actually, it all began during a youth encounter in September 2018. So, it was some months (3-4) after I had initiated a deeper relationship with God. Though during this youth encounter, I remember I was sincerely praying to God, when the face of a guy appeared in my mind like 3 times in row. Though, I would call him “H”. So, we were acquainted with each other for some years since we are in the same church, but it was mere greetings, never felt anything for him and pay real attention to him.
But that day while praying, I felt something strange in my heart for him. So, I told God if He wants me to love that person, give me a sign, like I was pretty straight to God. So, I asked Him to make “H” to come and talk to me on this very day, because I knew that “H” never really talked to me by himself. And it literally happened. And there was an immediate feeling which took place in my heart for him.
Following the youth encounter, there has been several opportunities where H and me were able to get to know each other, and each time I felt myself loving him. But this guy is actually the son of my Pastor. So it was pretty difficult for me to get along with my feelings, since I was a sinner in the past and I was just reborn in Christ. So, I let a lot of doubts in my mind, asking God for more signs while trying to focus first on God.
Sometimes, I really feel God approves this, but sometimes I think I’m wrong. It’s been like that since 2018. However, in 2019, I had a dream that he is marrying my best friend with the approval of my Pastor. And two days ago, I had another dream where my Pastor is prophesying that H would be with my best friend.
So, it’s hurting, but I want God’s will to be done. So I asked God to remove all my feelings towards H, and I feel myself having less feelings for him. But the problem is that there is still confusion, and I don’t know if those dreams are from God. I’m pretty lost. Like if God doesn’t approve my feelings for him, why did I feel that way in 2018 and why so many opportunities showed up in 2019. I just want to know God’s voice better on this subject please.
Could you please help me?
Thank you very much,
Stephanie.