Dear Lady. Ann:
I praise God for you and for what you do. You and your husband are such a blessing. I am [name concealed per request] and I stumbled (maybe not, you know why) on your Testimony video a couple of weeks ago. I have literally watched all the videos of yours in YouTube since then & even joined the Prayer Group in FB as well. The three day live sessions (especially the ‘Settle me, Oh Lord’) and the other live sessions has blessed me immensely. I am 26 years old. I have been struggling with so many things like loneliness, delay, valleys all the time, stagnation, singleness etc. However, I did get a clarity on what is going on in my life after I listened to your teachings. It really has helped me. I have started praying and I have committed to pray as well. Though I struggle a little bit here and there to keep it up, I refuse to give up in the name of Jesus.
I go to a good spiritual church where God feeds me with the spiritual food needed to keep me going. However, I don’t have a mentor to whom I can turn to, in case I have any questions. Also, this might sound crazy – I don’t have friends, like literally. I don’t know what it is about me, but I don’t have friends. I do have only the ‘passing cloud-type’ ones. When I used to be young, I used to keep sending messages every day to my so-called-friends to keep in touch with ‘whoever I thought’ was friend. Just so I can say I too had friends. Later, when years passed by, I understood that just me holding them won’t make them my friends or make me their friend. Guess what, I now did not even have ‘whoever I thought’ friends.
I even remember praying to God to give me good spiritual friends. Do I have them yet? Maybe one or two – but again we are not the best-friends type. At this point, I don’t care if I have a friend or if I don’t. I have God.
Oops! I side-tracked. Getting back to the mentor part – so I don’t have a mentor or friends to share my thoughts or ask suggestions. It’s just me and God. You might think ‘Isn’t that enough?’ Yeah it is. But I don’t have a good relationship with God. Not until I started watching your videos. I knew who God is, but not to the point where I ‘knew’ who He actually is and how He operates. Also, I am not someone new to the Spiritual Realm, however your perspective of things really helped me understand things as it should. I praise God for you. I am writing this letter to you, because I feel I can connect to someone who is in the same page as I am, someone who I can relate to or even trust – finally.
I need your suggestions/guidance on couple of things. 1) Height 2) Future Husband. Yes you heard it right. I am 1 CM short of 5 feet. So I am not even 5 feet yet. You might be like, how is that a problem? Maybe it is not a big problem for others. But for me it is. Here’s why! My dad’s parents & my dad’s siblings all of them are tall, like really tall. Some even 6 feet. And my mom’s parents & siblings – they are very tall too, some again 6 feet. All my cousins – ALL OF THEM – are tall too. However, somehow both my dad and mom are short. My dad is 5 feet while my mom is a little short than I am. Generational patterns? It does not look it, does it?
I always used to feel like this is not how I should look or this is not my identity, as in, for long enough I have known that the devil (who is a liar) has stolen my height. I should not be short – at all. But I am. During one of the live sessions, where you were guiding us through the identity issues, I felt this strong. I have to grow tall. I refuse to be short. All along these years when I sometimes (which is hardly a couple of times) open up to people telling them or rather asking them how I should pray about this – they always take it wrongly. They thought that I felt not good enough & that I should feel good about how I look. Yeah, I get. Once I used to be feeling sorry about myself, because people (even now) make fun of me.
Even children (school kids) are taller than I am & they make fun of me (some knowingly & some unknowingly). I am short to a point where people even think I’m studying in school. I’ll be like – seriously??? I mean I don’t want to take it as a compliment anymore. I am an adult. I am 26 years old. And I can’t be looking like a school kid when I’m in my season of marriage (I guess that is one of the reasons why I am still single – like literally every male I meet, they treat me like a school kid/sister; Never ever has someone seen me as a potential girlfriend – I don’t know if that’s good or not; But honestly it hurts you know – though I put on a smile face all the time like I am happy looking like a kid – which is not).
Anyways, I refuse to remain short. I need to grow again. Maybe another 5 inches within this month. And oh, the fun part – people to whom I have approached to get suggestions on how I should pray, they all left me even more down because all they did was to tell me to feel good about myself as I am. Why should I though? I mean, yeah I used to unhappy before. But now I know what is what. This – my height – the devil has stolen it from me & put me in a LOT of situations that made me lose my confidence in myself and God. I am not gonna let him have his way in me anymore. I need my height back. When I was thinking about it, I felt like I should tell you about this to get directions on how to pray. Would you walk me through on how I should do it?
The second is about my future husband. Like I had mentioned already, all your videos in YouTube has been an immense blessing – right on time. Guess what? I believe this is my season of marriage & God has ordained it as well, and that’s exactly why He made me stumble on your videos, so I get to prepare myself. When you asked us to have a prophetic date for praying, I did get one from God – July 17th 2021 (Oh my goodness, I’m literally all teeth even to type my wedding date). I have never been in a relationship before and I am from a background where I cannot date man to find who would be my future husband. However (I feel ashamed to say this) when I see someone godly, I do think how nice would that be if that person becomes my life partner. I think about this person for few days & that’s it – that hyped feeling is gone. This was way back when I was in college.
By the way, I am working now for 5 years. When I started working, I really didn’t think of someone like that, because at this point, I considered myself hopeless because my juniors were in a long-term relationship with someone already. I used to think to myself – I don’t even get someone to look at me as a potential girlfriend. How then can y’all make it to so many years of relationship? Like how? What I am missing? Even when we go to places or cafeteria as a group (group of girls together), people (boys) will follow all the other girls irrespective of the girls telling them they already have a boyfriend, but not one LITERALLY NOT ONE has ever approached me like that. I would be so much embarrassed to a point I preferred being alone all the time, unnoticed. All I can say to myself was God is protecting me from falling into these ungodly relationships – which could be true or it could not be – at least it comforted me – is what I thought – I was fooling myself. Deep down I wanted to be in a relationship as well. I mean it can’t be that hard, can it? I just wanted God to show me my future husband, so I can date him.
Alright! While this has been happening, one day I stumble on a video clip (it was a Chinese Drama) in FB. I see this person in that video. I don’t know what it is, I start to watch couple of his other videos. At one point, I have no idea from where this thought sprung in my heart, but I felt this is the one. Again it could be my flesh or the voices of the world or even the voice of the devil. The strange part is, I have this urge in my spirit to pray for his salvation. At this point I don’t know nothing about this person and this person does not even know I exist (even now). Honestly, I have never prayed for someone like this. Even if I had prayed for someone in the past, it was for someone I know & just for couple of days. Nothing like this where I have been praying for months together.
That’s when, I have been getting clues here and there that he could be the one. But I am not sure yet though. I have been trying to apply the methods you have been teaching in the live sessions on how to hear from God. Let God give me His grace and be merciful to me. Now I know this is my season. I also know my marriage date. Now I need a confirmation if this is the one or not. I really pray to God that God gives me a verse or something that will clearly tell me ‘this is it – this is the man God has for me”, so that I can claim that promise for my marriage and pray for my future husband.
Would you walk me through on how to get this sorted? On how to seek God for an answer? Would you also pray for these? I would really appreciate it. And this will mean a lot to me. You have no idea – how much it would mean to have you pray because even when I ask people to pray (before), people were judging me for what I asked them.
If God can open the eyes of a blind man, why wouldn’t He make me grow? These people to whom I asked for prayer advice, I guess they were too naïve to think God cannot do it, so safely just told me that I should love myself for how it is. And oh! I almost missed it. I would like to start a blog where I can share my testimonies and be a blessing to others as well. I pray God gives me ideas & wisdom to do so. Please add that to the prayer list as well. Would you? Anyways!!! Please pray for me for these three things. Looking forward to hearing from you!
Your sister in Christ,
[name concealed per request]
NOTE: Please keep this confidential. It took me so much courage to write this to you finally. Thank you! God bless you!