Dear Lady. Ann:
Thanks for this platform. I have been with this man of God for the past 7 years. From an innocent friendship, it developed into kissing. No physical touching besides a hug 🤗. Both of us lost our partners more than 8years ago. Somedays it would seem like he loves me. And then there comes these days that he would be distant, depending whose company we are in.. Being both pastors of our individual churches, we share things about our churches but he is not as open as I am. There is this certain lady that he would not say a word about, she is his daughters friend and age. I am saying there is something but it feels so demonic and secretive.
He does not speak openly about his finances only when he complains. He would take me out maybe once in a while. He can go into a shop and buy himself a bottle of water or anything without sometimes asking me or just buying for me too. Now and then he would offer to pay for stuff. I am a giver by nature, I serve him well.
He spends 💯 100% of his time at my house 🏡 mainly dinner times and would sit up late. Sometimes if asked to bring a take away dinner he would. Very secretive about his future plans should something happen to him. E.g. his car, his will, and belongings. I might be wrong or oversensitive. I buy and give at any time from a chocolate 🍫 to clothing, but I only get Christmas and on my birthday. He said at the beginning of our friendship he can’t marry again and I understand why. The only thing is that their church constitution does not allow divorced people to remarry.
I love him but I feel so insecure and unprotected.
I miss him if I don’t see him for a day. Oh!! He would sometimes also not communicate on social media, WhatsApp until he needs something. I care 100% for him in sickness and in health. Please advice. Keep my identity private please.
Yours in Christ
Sister love