Dear Lady. Ann:
Well I grew up with a deep desire to have a man in my life from a very young age. I have been with a lot of men in my life.
I am currently 32, an Accountant by profession with two kids from two different men. I am currently going through a lot emotionally. I am filled with regret and fear of the future. Me & the father of my youngest child who is 15 months old broke up a year ago because he cheated on me, he apologized but I could never trust him again and I was torn apart and I decided to end things with him.
He is a good father and involved in my children’s life. I am finding myself thinking too much about him and hoping we can work things out. I have never told him how I feel. I sometimes feel that I ended things too soon and should have tried to seek counselling after he cheated.
I am worried about my kids, how will our lives be like if I cannot get back with this man, will I meet someone who will love my kids the way he does? How will me being with another man affect my children?
Recently I had dream about him marrying another woman and I woke up very sad and it affected me the whole week. Honestly I don’t want to rush us getting back together, yet I worry he will move on. At the same time, I feel he needs to find himself and decide what he wants in life.
I also fear holding on to him and we never get back together, I think it will create some kind of soul tie.
Please advise.