Dear Lady. Ann:
I want to thank you God for using you to deliver many of us from the bondage of darkness. I will be 32 this March. I am a lady who grew up with different family members and was not shown love as a child. I used to be very prayerful when I was a teenager. But after high school, a married man lied to me and took away my virginity. He wanted to marry me but I refused to be his second wife. Please Let me give a brief history of my dating life before I got addicted to masturbation and pornography. I moved on with my life and dated a guy for 4 years in long distance relationship while I was in the university. We were so much in love and everybody thought we will marry but we broke up in 2013 Dec. We tried keeping in touch but after some time he never communicated with me again unless I am the one to send him a message.
After the breakup, I had a couple of serious relationships that didn’t work out because I was still thinking about my ex. He came back home from the US in 2017 and when we met he spoke about how he was ready to have a child but because he didn’t specifically ask me to be the mother of his children, I didn’t want to appear desperate. We both laughed over it and he travelled to see his family in another town, came and left to the US without telling me. I have always loved him, was hoping we will get back together and when he didn’t even say goodbye to me, I was broken and went into depression. That led me to not care about myself anymore and ended up being taken advantage (sexual coercion) of by a guy (church guy) I partnered with to do business.
Today, I am a single mother of a 20 months old baby girl. When I was pregnant, my friend wanted to help me abort, but some people spoke me out of it. My baby daddy said he wants to marry, but he had all the wrong reasons why he wanted to do so and besides I don’t love him. When I think of how he took advantage of me, my spirit and body repulse him so much. I forgave him and ask him to marry whoever he wants, but I still feel hurt when I look at the child sometimes. At the beginning of this year, a guy who has been pursuing me since 2017 came again and I said Yes to him. But unknowingly to me, he got married last Nov, 2020. But was still asking me to be his main girl because he loves me, but the red flags were there so I asked my aunt whose husband introduced me to him and she said he is married now. I am hurt again and he said I should be blamed for not saying yes to him on time.
Now my masturbation and pornography story. I started watching pornography and doing masturbation since 2012 and have been struggling with it. Then I came across your videos on YouTube and three days ago, I started my deliverance following your guideline. I felt delivered after three days of fasting and prayers. During these three days, I had a dream where I saw an old man (the face of my uncle) smoking and a child and his wife. The man was very angry at me. That was when I knew a spirit family really exist in my life. I have been having sex dreams for years now. I prayed against this family during the fast. This morning 21/3/2021 at dawn while I went into light sleep after waking up, I had a dream, I saw the light went off in my room and when I tried switching it on I couldn’t. Then I saw my child’s father in the dream and asked him to see what was wrong with the lights. He came into the room, touched the switch and the lights came on again. Then he started romancing me and I tried resisting him but I was struggling until he was about to penetrate me and I shouted Jesus and he didn’t succeed and I woke up and started praying again.
I really want to get married and have a beautiful family too but It’s been a lot of heart breaks and I am tired. Sometimes, I just want to give up on love but I also still desire it too. Please give me some advice and keep me in prayers. I should have been married years ago but I believe this covenant in the spirit realm is making me unstable for any man to want me.
Thank you.