Dear Lady. Ann:
Years ago, I left my country because the Lord told me to go study abroad. I got my bachelor in 2020 with a lot of struggle both financial and spiritual. I’m 26 and I feel late in my own life. In the following weeks I’ll be applying for masters programs all over the world. Last year I applied and was denied access. It broke my heart to waste one more year. Please pray that I find favor this time. I’m currently living in France but years ago God said USA and England too. Thing is I don’t know anyone there and I have no money. All along 2020 the Lord told me to prepare like a spouse and confirmed it using my spiritual leaders and many people. As a worship leader, I see God blessing people through me and I’m grateful. But when I come home I’m all alone with literally no friend. I feel lonely and cry. I wonder what’s taking God that long as people got visions of my husband standing right next to me.
The Lord gave me specific characteristics of my future husband and I would appreciate if you could pray for me to have the ability to wait properly and not lower my standards. I had an ugly past. Since I recommitted myself to Jesus my little sisters and I broke many generational curses among which the one that said “no marriage for women”. Because of my past I happened to refuse more responsibilities in church. I used to be the one going out to preach the gospel in streets and social medias but today I’m scared of everything. Scared to go out there and not see God protect and provide. Scared to pay the price. Scared to be hurt, judged and abandoned. Scared to fall again. I even feel abandoned by the Lord who made me leave my country. I tried dating apps but the people who were interested in me were not matching what God said so I gave up on these apps. I don’t want to walk alone anymore and I cannot force God’s hand. So I’m praying for more wisdom, discernment and obedience of His voice.
Thank you for everything